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Monday, November 2nd, 2015
5:27 pm
The One Where Everyone Hates You.
I am still trying to figure it all out and where it went wrong.
Let's see if you can work this one out:

"What happened was she flirted with you, and you flirted back.
She took it the wrong way and got offended and now everybody hates you.
Have you noticed that no one is actually friendly towards you?
They are just being civil."

How should I react to this?
I don't know who I offended because either nothing was said at
the time or it would be considered trivial by any sane, thinking person.
If I knew who this was I would sincerely apologize for anything I said
or did.

But to have people turn against me over this?
That's rather shitty behaviour don't you think?

How does innocently flirting with someone make you the enemy?
Thursday, August 6th, 2015
1:16 am
How to be successful on YouTube.
Great SEO, collabs, Good channel design, videos created to promote products/companies, keep them under 3-4 minutes, adwords campaign options but most of all... make great content. Great quality, high res, short, entertaining content. Other than creating your own website and treating all social media platforms individually, that's all the advice I can give really.
Wednesday, March 4th, 2015
9:36 pm
The Bullying Will Never End.
I'll be 42 this year and I have realized that the bullying will never end.
As part of my recovery I have decided to lift weights and go for a walk every single day. It's about getting fitter and so forth.

Anyway, today I go for my walk and it's after school. There are two highschool girls and a highschool guy sitting on some equipment as I walk past them. I ignore them because I just had that feeling that something stupid would happen. I walk at a steady pace and of course am ever hopeful that they would just leave me alone.

I hear sudden laughter behind me. I do not turn around. I keep my eyes front and keep walking. It comes.
"Can I be your friend?" says a condescending female voice behind me, just on the border of the earshot.
It suggests that I don't have any friends or that I am too ugly to get a girlfriend. It's not the first time I have had similar horrible sexual harassment of this sort.

When I don't respond or react to the now disembodied voice behind me, it upsets them. I refuse to take their bait. The voices get louder.

"Hey!" is shouted by a female voice. But I keep going.

"I'll be 42 this year. When will this stop?" I reflect to myself and I realize that it will never stop.

Current Mood: shit
Tuesday, March 3rd, 2015
7:52 pm
A Writer Must Write Daily.
This is something that you will hear often, if you want to be a writer that is.
A writer must write daily, even if you don't feel like it and especially when it's difficult.
I used to spend hours writing here, guaranteed an audience, before everyone shifted over to Myspace, and then Facebook. I shifted over there too with the allure of the silly little time wasting games and the chance to leave witty comments on people's posts.

But I learned a lot from my friends here on Livejournal, like being brief with my words and to have a point at the end. The point here being that I really should get back into writing again. Inspired by both Harlan Ellison and to a lesser degree Neil Gaiman, each of whom cite each other, I am going to write again.
Good, bad and indifferent. Now that I am sure that most of my audience has left here, and if you are still here you are part of a small group that I am investing my trust in, I will hopefully write a lot more.

Writing is of course, a discipline.

Watch this space.
Tuesday, February 3rd, 2015
1:25 am
I miss Livejournal.
I miss coming on here and typing to my hearts content. Of being able to just put my thoughts down on this white block and knowing that there would be someone who would read what I had written.

My focus was never money, but the content often dealt with the lack thereof.
It's a perpetual struggle. I lost my job last year and it's been a pain to try and maintain my sanity
and keep my head above water. But yeah, I miss livejournal. I miss having somewhere where I can just
put my thoughts down on paper.
Tuesday, May 27th, 2014
11:01 pm
After an eight year hiatus...
... I've decided to redo and complete the comic I started in 2006. I made the mistake of telling people at the comic meetings my idea and of course was immediately accused of plagiarism of a comic that never existed. So, I was somewhat discouraged and had to look at other options.

Now with the current return of a certain political party and the return of myself to welfare it's perfect timing.
9:58 pm
It's the same crap every year.
I just had someone complaining on Facebook because I used the words "nostril hair". I mean, seriously?! WTF, people! It's like the internet just creates things for people to be offended by. I am sick of it.

She sends me a personal chat message every year. Seriously, I went through chat history because what she was saying just seemed so familiar. The theme was but the words weren't. Last time this happened I chose to unfollow her posts on Facebook to stop the temptation of clicking 'like' on her stuff (it's incredibly hilarious at times) because she was paranoid.

But a month later she complained that I wasn't giving her feedback. Now she's complaining again and I considered unfriending her. However this just causes more dramas. Everyone else is allowed to comment on her posts freely and without question.

I am sick and tired of this crap and it's the same crap every year.
Thursday, February 13th, 2014
2:23 am
So, what do you do when you're the victim?
I doubt many people read this journal any more as other websites and social media become more and more popular, this sort of thing falls by the wayside.

Right now I am going through a rough patch. I've had people accuse me of stuff at work and the boss has taken their side of events to be true (because there are multiple sources it must be true right?).

Then there's the sexual harassment directed towards me. Dick jokes and vaseline references. Gay innuendo, etc.
But a woman can be offended by simply reminding them to "take off their work shirt" so it can be washed at the end of the day. Strange that.

Another staff member isn't doing her job and has been using me as a scapegoat for stuff not being done and because she's hellbent on a management position that will never happen she is making life hell for everyone.

So, what do you do when you're the victim? I can't vent on facebook because it gets back to work through rumours.
I haven't journalled in a long time and I haven't been to meditation because of the work hours.

I have no idea what to do. Some people just say "keep your mouth shut" and keep working.
Monday, June 24th, 2013
7:33 pm
I need to write again.
Right now I am in the middle of exam revision, and therefore shouldn't really be writing this.
However, it's been a while since I have written anything here and I can feel it eating away at me.
Not in a bad way though. I realise that when I type stuff it can appear darker than I intended.

It's just the urge to be creative, to meditate, to improve myself again.

I'm currently revising for the exams I failed last year. My whole uni career pretty much hinges on doing passing these subjects and it doesn't look like I am going to make it. However, I can only try my best and hope for the best.

I hope everyone enjoyed the super moon. I managed to get some decent footage of it. It will be a while before I can edit and upload it though.
Wednesday, May 1st, 2013
2:07 am
Marriage is a civil right.
Recently I shared something on my Facebook wall about marriage. This brought the usual attention from those that agreed with the meme. It also caught the attention of a Christian friend's wife who then went on to spiel about marriage being invented by God, etc.

This was the same excuse given to preventing interracial couples from getting married. Yes, this happened in my lifetime. Crazy but true.

You can see why gay people would be pushing for equal marriage rights. It's so simple. They just want the option to do what everyone else does. It's no drama.
Monday, January 28th, 2013
6:00 am
Prejudice Against Puppets?
Battles is a puppet that I bought for $10 at the Supanova convention. Have you seen my photo with Felicia Day?
She's gorgeous by the way. Anyway, back to the puppet.

I picked it out because it had the most personality to me. It was named Battles by his creator as a reference to "Every day battles".

I've done a few videos as a test and he appeared on a google hangout and a stickam show. I did a JibJab Gangnam Style thing with him and uploaded some of the screenshots to facebook too.

The funniest ones. No one seems to have gotten the joke yet.

In the stickam show, he was loved.

In the google hangout, he was despised.

"That's scary. I don't know what it is. How do I kill it?" -- A woman in Texas.

"Excuse me, I don't mean to be rude but that puppet is just wrong." -- A black transgender woman with beard (transitioning from a woman to a man). I don't judge, I just found the irony to be amusing.

Anyway, I am going to get some business cards printed up with Battles image on it.
We'll see where that goes.
Thursday, December 27th, 2012
2:04 am
Merry Christmas and a Hobbit New Year!
I haven't been here for a while, but I would like to wish my readers still here a Merry Christmas and a happy new year for 2013.

I trust you got and gave what you wanted to and that everything is running smoothly for the time being.
Wednesday, December 12th, 2012
6:03 am
Perceptions get warped on Facebook.
I really have to be careful what I say and do online. Sometimes, there's no real way of knowing how people will interpret our actions online. I recently got a message from someone telling me that the "constant" likes and comments were getting too much. Which is fine, but they hadn't posted a whole lot so it appears that I was liking and commenting on everything they did. I comment and like on a lot of stuff, but she saw it as an exclusive thing. I don't like her in that way. She got annoyed by our last interaction, in which she had asked for some technical advice and I responded and suggested several different responses. She gets upset because she didn't make it clear what she actually wanted and then chooses the suggestion of someone else. Whatever.

She'd complained previously, but this was because she'd just broken up with a stalker ex. Clearly, she's not ready for Words with Friends. Another thing is this perception of "space" online. It's text on a screen, people.
It's a perception thing that gets warped. But at the same time, people shouldn't be prying in other people's business. So, I just won't interact with her online for like a year. (I just checked her wall, and it was like every other

Another issue with Facebook and other online venues is that vocal tone doesn't translate, and english has a lot of intonations and nuances that are necessary for full understanding. So very often nuances are lost and I find myself umming and ahhing as to whether I should spend the next half an hour clarifying minutia. Most of the time it's not worth it.
Tuesday, December 4th, 2012
2:53 pm
You're a survivor, and I'm proud of you.
I can't always post here and when I do it's probably not the most riveting stuff.
But I have read a lot of stuff on here and it amazes me the stuff you've all gone through, but you just keep plowing through it all. I'm so proud of where you are now, given where you were when I found you. How much growth, change, loss have you discovered in that time?


Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Tuesday, November 13th, 2012
10:56 pm
Obama: The Aftermath.
I've been laughing since the re-election of Barrack Obama. Why?
Because of how everyone is reacting to it all. The racist tweets highlight how the USA, and the developed world has a long way to go in that regard and aren't funny.

What is funny is the idea that somehow Obama's second term will herald in 'a thousand years of darkness' because Obamacare is somehow a socialist policy. It doesn't affect those businesses with less than 30 employees by the way, and ensures that you have health cover. How can that be a bad thing?

The Australian system bypasses this by making sure that everyone has access to medicare and therefore medical care (and gets people back into the workforce faster).

The amount of people crying and whinging and in just utter disbelief that Obama won a second term is both amazing and laughable. Of course, to those outside of the USA it was a foregone conclusion (and in fact turned out the be a landslide).

Obama won Florida too. Icing on the cake.

The biggest joke though, and the one that still has me scratching my head at how absurd it all is, is that 20 states have file petitions to secede from the union. Yes, that's right. 27 states want to no longer be a part of the United States.

The only state that would have any real chance would be Texas and I fail to see how that would be a good idea.

What do you think about the whole thing? Personally I don't have a problem with Obama except for that whole NDAA and drone strikes thing. The Patriot Act needs to be repealed and the wars need to end.
Thursday, November 8th, 2012
3:26 am
Obama Wins! But does this mean it's 1000 years of darkness?
Chuck Norris said that if Obama wins it would lead to 1000 years of darkness with the addition of socialized healthcare.

This is a hilarious satire I thought up but someone else filmed and edited.

Let me know what you think.
Monday, October 29th, 2012
2:07 am
Just touching base.
It's been a while, but I do like to check in every so often. My journals can't be as insightful as they have been in the past due to my attention being focused elsewhere.

Strangely enough, I have to post blog entries for University! LOL. It's a part of Introduction to Digital Media. I made a video that was incredibly embarrassing and unpresentable to the organization meaning I will have to redo the video. However I didn't save the project at all and that means that I will have to start again from scratch.

I also have to produce a website and I am not really confident with it.
But yeah, I am still here. Not as often as I'd like to be though, and I do skim through your journal entries here and will help where I can.

Have fun and I'll catch up with you all next time.
Tuesday, October 9th, 2012
6:40 pm
Red Dwarf X : 'Trojan' Review
It's been a long time in coming; a new season of Red Dwarf is here.

2009's Back To Earth was disappointing in many ways, but I was just glad to have the crew of the Red Dwarf back on air, and I was worried that this new proper season would also disappoint. It didn't. It was awesome.

I won't go into plot details or spoilers, you can find them online elsewhere.
Some jokes didn't work because there was no real pay off or reason for them, but others were laugh out loud funny. The cast are somewhat older, but the characters are still very much the same as they always were.

The Boyz are back!

I can't wait for the second episode.
Monday, October 8th, 2012
2:53 am
It's time to be grateful again.
Once again, I have to express my gratitude to the volunteers at Fred's Van.
They are a subdivision of St. Vincent de Paul's Anglican charity.

I only go there when truly necessary and due to a little bit of financial mismanagement on my part, and so I decided to go. Luckily there weren't too many people there, but most of it was gone by the time I turned up. I still had a decent feed though and at the end I was called back and then given a whole heap of tinned food and such. I filled my bag to the brim. They don't do this to everyone, but they have learned to trust me. There are some who employ all sorts of scams and what not to get food. I just hang back and wait my turn, making friends with the staff.

Fred's Van is basically a mobile soup kitchen that parks out the front a local church.
They serve hotdogs on bread, various soups, pasta, etc. There is coffee and tea available too. Sometimes they will have fruit and custard for desert. There can be sandwiches to take home and tinned food and fruit, etc. The food is free and it's open to everyone that feels they need it.

I've been going on and off for years. There was a year when I didn't go (and lost 15 kilograms) but now I go mostly for the support. It's backup if I need it, but the idea is to work so that I don't need it. They are proud that I am going to University.

If I ever make it big, this is one of the charities that is going to get a large donation.
Tuesday, October 2nd, 2012
5:49 pm
A Study Break is not a break from study.
Oh dear. I fell into a bit of down spin during the first week of the study break. There was a whole heap of stuff that I needed to be doing but just couldn't bring myself to get out of bed in time to do it. By the start of the second week, I needed to have a contribution to a group assignment done and I managed to get half of it done because I didn't understand how to do it.

I really need to get in touch with some of the other students for clarification of it all.
Another assignment required the cooperation of an organization that unfortunately, has been uncooperative. It's mostly my fault as I was supposed to have contacted them ages and then sort everything out that I needed to. Now I have to get an extention to cater for their time schedule.

*Sigh* This is going to suck really badly. However, on the plus side I got a Credit for one assignment and I just barely scraped through with a P2 for another. I haven't failed just yet and everyone is telling me to keep going, so that is what I am going to do.
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